Wow! i havent made an entry in a loooooong time! oh well, thats ok, alot of stuff has been on my mind lately. Finals mostly, wow...finals were so time consuming and stressful! OMG! Anyway...alot of grieving for Jemae even though i didnt know her...im sorry, RIP JEMAE! I have been mostly looking back at the days where i would call you almost everyday and tell you things i wouldnt tell to even some of my close friends...cuz you were my closest friend...but now that I see how much you really care i dont know what to call you anymore...i still want to see you as my friend but i cant see you as that because friends dont treat each other like that...its not right...it hurts me everytime i see you...it takes so much not to be able to say anything to you, it is so hard not to say hi to you when i see you...sometimes i want to call someone and i start dialing your number but then i realize that i cant...im sorry about all that stuff about your ex...i truly am...on the real though...i just want us back the way we were...... i miss you
Char,
I was angry for so long
It put so much pressure on my heart
I didnt know how i could go on
It was a month we spent apart
I didnt talk to you or communicate
But snuck peaks when your head was turned away
I so badly want to end this debate
So i could finally say things i want to say
You gave me butterflies in my stomach
Everytime i saw your face
My friendship started to plummet
and my love for you, displaced
But i managed to write this for you
Because i didnt have any worries
That your friendship with me would stay true
and you would finally say, "Im sorry"
>Cyrus< |